love strolling in the beach & watching the sky filled with stars. i wish i could travel to the universe. Cheesie Melody Shi Ting Xia Xue
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Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Family??
I've long forgotten what is the feeling of having a family. The feelings has long gone when i was in primary 4. I did not felt a thing as i was very young and naive. Kept thinking thats the way we 'family' lives. But actually is not.. I don't know why i always HOPE that miracle can happen whereas everything has already gone. I don't know why am i still carrying HOPE for it. I blame myself for that it didnt happen. I myself couldn't communicate with them either. All of us have serious communication problems. I don't know how should i communicate with them. I simply just flare out my anger whenever the communication fails. And yet i am hoping for miracle to happen. Seriously a joke. Was it because i doesn't want to face the reality that in actual fact i have a broken family?? Why do i always feel hurt whenever my family members quarrel? They are not quarreling with me, i don't understand why i felt so hurt. Was it because my hope just crushed once again?
I feel like running away from this house & never return again. But i doubt i can leave with a ease of mind. I know i am running away from this.. i know the problem still exists. But i really had enough of all these. How can i end it??????????????????????? |