<body><script type="text/javascript"> function setAttributeOnload(object, attribute, val) { if(window.addEventListener) { window.addEventListener('load', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }, false); } else { window.attachEvent('onload', function(){ object[attribute] = val; }); } } </script> <div id="navbar-iframe-container"></div> <script type="text/javascript" src="https://apis.google.com/js/platform.js"></script> <script type="text/javascript"> gapi.load("gapi.iframes:gapi.iframes.style.bubble", function() { if (gapi.iframes && gapi.iframes.getContext) { gapi.iframes.getContext().openChild({ url: 'https://www.blogger.com/navbar.g?targetBlogID\x3d17834561\x26blogName\x3dahv0n\x27s\x26publishMode\x3dPUBLISH_MODE_BLOGSPOT\x26navbarType\x3dBLUE\x26layoutType\x3dCLASSIC\x26searchRoot\x3dhttps://ahv0n.blogspot.com/search\x26blogLocale\x3den_US\x26v\x3d2\x26homepageUrl\x3dhttp://ahv0n.blogspot.com/\x26vt\x3d-3296934379508014371', where: document.getElementById("navbar-iframe-container"), id: "navbar-iframe" }); } }); </script>
Tuesday, June 18, 2013
Family??

I've long forgotten what is the feeling of having a family. The feelings has long gone when i was in primary 4. I did not felt a thing as i was very young and naive. Kept thinking thats the way we 'family' lives. But actually is not.. I don't know why i always HOPE that miracle can happen whereas everything has already gone. I don't know why am i still carrying HOPE for it. I blame myself for that it didnt happen. I myself couldn't communicate with them either. All of us have serious communication problems. I don't know how should i communicate with them. I simply just flare out my anger whenever the communication fails. And yet i am hoping for miracle to happen. Seriously a joke. Was it because i doesn't want to face the reality that in actual fact i have a broken family?? Why do i always feel hurt whenever my family members quarrel? They are not quarreling with me, i don't understand why i felt so hurt. Was it because my hope just crushed once again?

I feel like running away from this house & never return again. But i doubt i can leave with a ease of mind. I know i am running away from this.. i know the problem still exists. But i really had enough of all these. How can i end it???????????????????????